Monday, August 1, 2011

Heeeeeee's Heeeeeere!!

Ok, well, he's BEEN here! LOL! Brock Anthony Barbosa was born on Wednesday, May 18th at 10:14 am. He was 20.25" long and weighed 8 lbs 12 oz. He will be 11 weeks old this Wednesday and the time has FLOWN! I will make this one long blog about his first few days, then I will be starting a new blog 'Brock Talk' that will have updates on his growth, milestones, and mommy advice!!

My last week of pregnancy I got this condition called PUPPS (pruritic urticarial papules and plaques of pregnancy). It only happens to about 1% of pregnant women and somehow I managed to get it. I figured I was due one bad symptom because the rest of my pregnancy was so wonderful. It was incredibly uncomfortable because every part of my body just itched like crazy. And the more I would scratch, the more it would itch! My doctor called in pills, cream, everything and nothing really helped. It was definitely not something I would wish on anyone, but they say the chances of it happening again are very very rare.

As I talked about in previous posts, due to my 'narrow' anatomy and the predicted size of Baby B, my doctor made the decision to schedule a c-section before his due date, but after the 'safe' point. She didn't want him to get much bigger but she wanted to make sure we gave him every chance to be fully developed. My c-section was scheduled for Wednedsay so I made the previous Friday my last day at work before maternity leave. Those first 2 days of the week at home were TORTURE!! I was so anxious/nervous/excited...Monday I cooked tons of food, cleaned the house, made sure all our bags were ready and that the baby's room was ready to go. I even got out in the terrible heat and trimmed all of our bushes in front of our house!! LOL! Tuesday was a different story, that's when the panic set in. Not really panic of having a baby, but of being cut open!! I was terrified and a total mess! I hadn't slept for 3 days because I was just thinking about it, so with the 'ok' of the nurses I took some Tylenol PM the night before my surgery to get a good nights sleep. It helped SO MUCH!

The day of the surgery I woke up ready to go. Since it was already scheduled, I took a shower, shaved my legs, did my hair and make up, as many things as I could do to make myself feel 'pretty' before going in to the hospital. I knew I probably wouldn't be able to do those things for awhile so I made sure I went in feeling as good as possible! Nick's stomach was in knots so we had to stop by and get him some calming medicine on the way to the hospital!! LOL! Again, since it was scheduled we got in right away. As soon as we walked into our room, they had all these needles and medical equipment laid out and I lost it. They took my blood pressure and it was super high due to my nerves! LOL! The nurses were so wonderful and got me calmed down. The doctor was ready to go early so my 10:30 scheduled time was bumped up to a little before 10am. Having (very fortunately) never been a patient in a hospital before, I was soooo scared of the anesthesia, the procedure, everything. When they first took me back to the room, Nick wasn't allowed to come with me until I was totally numb and the room was ready. I was so scared they would forget to get him to come in the room!

The nurses did the best job of telling me what was going on, keeping me calm and getting me ready for the surgery. The anesthesia was a very strange feeling. It almost felt like a big weight on my chest at first. But once the doctor started going, things progressed super fast. They surgery started at about 10 and by 10:14 our beautiful baby boy was screaming and peeing all over the place! The first thing our doctor said was 'He looks just like his Dad!' I'll never forget that feeling when I heard his little scream and saw his precious face when she lifted him over the curtain for me to see him. He was absolutely perfect and I just started crying tears of joy immediately. He pee'd all over everything as they were weighing him!! Definitely showing his 'boy' personality.

They got him weighed, measured and cleaned up and then gave him to Nick. Nick brought him over to me and he was still crying and as soon as he heard my voice, he stopped and tried to open his eyes to see me! That was an amazing feeling. The lights were too bright so he couldn't get them open right away, but he knew his mama was right there! My doctor got me stitched back up really quickly and we were being wheeled to our room! I got to hold him on our way to the room and that's when he really opened his eyes for the first time. It was the most beautiful thing I've ever seen! As they wheeled us in to our room, both our families were huddled in the waiting room peeking in and taking pics like paparazzi!!

Nick and I got to spend an hour of time with just us and the baby. He nursed a little bit, did some skin to skin time with Mommy and mostly just laid there while we both stared at him in total amazement! They gave him his first little bath and put him under the warmer. That's when we let the families come in and see him. My dad, Mom, Pat, Mia, Gary and Judy were the first ones in the room and they were all just looking at him and taking pictures! He just laid on the warmer totally alert letting them all check him out. We announced his name and everyone was so excited!

We were in the hospital just over 3 days and had so many visitors! We felt so blessed to have so many people come excited to meet our little angel! We were shocked by how alert Brock was from the beginning. He was already start to pick his head up off my chest from the first day! The nurses at St. Luke's South were unbelievably amazing!! I decided that as soon as I could have all the tubest taken out of me and I could start moving around, I wanted to. They were so supportive and helped me through everything. Wednesday night was the earliest I could get everything taken out/off and as long as I could walk to the bathroom, they said I was good to go. I couldn't get that stuff off soon enough! I was up walking that night and able to take a shower and start walking more the next day.

I think moving so soon actually helped my recovery. I was on minimal pain meds after I left the hospital and really only took them at home for about the first week. Now, emotionally was a totally different story. I should probably dedicate an entire blog to this, but I'll just add it here. The night we got home, I hit a wall. I think my hormones totally bottomed out and I was so exhausted that I just couldn't function. I was anxious, tired and an emotional mess! This continued for about a week. The 2nd day we were home was the worst. I spent the ENTIRE day crying. I could barely hold Brock because it would just make me sad. I felt so overwhelmed and like I all of the sudden wasn't ready for this. I felt like I missed our old life of being able to do whatever we wanted, whenever we wanted. I felt guilty for feeling that way because we had this amazing, beautiful, HEALTHY baby boy. These were all feelings I NEVER expected to feel. I thought you fall so deeply in love that you're just in this cloud of bliss after the baby. While I was unconditionally in love with this little baby, I was struggling at the same time. My doctor called it the 'Baby Blues' and apparently it's very very common and most women experience it on some level. I had never heard of it before so I was feeling like the worst mother in the world at first! Learning that it's a very normal thing actually helped me cope. Nick and my mom literally saved me during those first 48 hours home. The first night was rough, so my mom spent the night the 2nd night and they took care of the baby while I got some good sleep. That made a WORLD of difference and each day got a little better than the last. I think it's important to talk about this because all women should know you're not a terrible mom or alone if you have these feelings!

Breastfeeding was hands down the most difficult thing I've ever done. While Brock was a total champ when he was trying to latch and was so patient and never really got frustrated. In fac, he would almost get 'too comfy' and would fall asleep every time I tried to nurse. When we left the hospital he was down to 8lbs 4 oz and a little dehydrated so they had us supplementing with a little newborn formula to keep his weight up. It got to the point that when nursing, he would fall asleep so hard that nothing would wake him up. We tried cold rags, pinching/poking him, clothes on, clothes off, changing his diaper, none of it would keep him up for more than a few minutes, if that. It was such an intense struggle, but see the first post in 'Brock Talk' for how we got through it.

Overall, the whole experience is exactly what everyone says it will be and more. People tell you, 'your life is going to change' and 'you're going to fall in love more than you know' and all I can say is they are SO RIGHT, but it's something you can never really grasp until you're there. Every day I love Brock more and more (which I didn't even think was possible) and I've learned more about myself in the past 11 weeks than I have in my whole life. I've learned it's ok to be vulnerable and to let other people help you. I've learned I'm both stronger and weaker than I thought - both in different areas. I've learned what it really means to love something so much it hurts. And more importantly, I've learned about putting someone else 100% before myself. I've also learned about what's really important in life. I've already noticed a few people that I have cut out of my life just because they bring nothing but negative energy. I gained almost 70 lbs with him and while it kills me everyday because I have such a long way to go to lose it, I've learned that for once, there is something in my life so much more important than my pant size. Fitting into those old pants as quickly as I would like, would mean missing time out with my son and right now, it's SOOOO not worth it!

For those of you who followed my pregnancy journey, thank you for being there with me!! The ride has just begun and I hope you'll stay with me!! Be sure to check out 'Brock Talk' for updates on him and advice for all you other mommies out there! Oh and for those of you who aren't my friends on Facebook he's a picture of my baby boy on the day he was born:

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

The waiting game...

38 weeks

Here we are, playing the waiting game!! Baby B could literally make his appearance any minute and we are so excited and ready to meet him!! Everything is about as ready as it could possibly be and we're just waiting for him to give us the green light!

I've had a lot of itching lately on my stomach where these stretchmarks have gotten just out of control. I think the cream I've been using is actually helping them heal, which is causing them to itch, but sometimes it's just unbearable.

We had our breastfeeding class last night and it is a class I would hands down recommend to anyone who plans on breastfeeding. Nick came too and I think it was important to have him there. I know there will be times that I'll get frustrated and want to give up and I think having him there to coach me through using some of the tips we learned last night will help things go more smoothly.

We got the carseats installed last week and that was quite a reality check!! It's crazy to see that base sitting in my car, waiting for the little man to come ride along with me somewhere!

We had a slight 'scare' last week. Not really a scare, but I felt like I was leaking more than normal so we called the doctor. She sent us to the hospital to get checked out and make sure I wasn't leaking any amniotic fluid or anything. Everything checked out fine and as usual, little man was showing off his acrobatics on the monitor and we could hear him kicking and moving around!

We got see the doctor again on Thursday of this week and she's going to check to see if he's dropped any further and if my cervix has opened any. If not, she thinks she'll want to schedule a c-section for anytime between 39-40 weeks. If he has, I'm not quite sure what she'll recommend for us! My birthday is Friday and Mother's Day is Sunday so it'd be the greatest gift of all to get to have him by then, but whenever he decides he's ready. On one hand, I'm so ready to meet him and ready to get back to somewhat normal (sleeping on my stomach, wearing normal clothes, walking in a straight line, etc), but on the other, I know this time is limited and you only get to be pregnant the first time, one time. I want to enjoy it as much as possible.

This past week I've had a lot of nausea, heartburn and even some contractions!! So far none of them have been consistent enough to even think about calling the doctor. It's a weird feeling because yes they are painful and pain is bad, but I almost find myself wanting them to keep going in hopes that this is the real deal! We compared Nick and I's newborn pictures and judging from the sonogram, I think Baby B is gonna look a lot like his Daddy! We'll see hopefully very very soon!

Letter to my little man...

My sweet baby boy,

We are weeks (maybe even days) from being able to finally see your precious angel face. The time has flown by, yet it feels like eternity all at the same time. I simply cannot wait to hold you, kiss you, hug you, stare at you and watch you grow. You have already given your Dad and I so much joy and you aren't even here yet!

I am already so proud of you and unbelievably honored to be your Mommy. You have made the past 9 months the most amazing experience of my life. From hearing you first hearbeat, to getting the first peek at you and learning that you were our baby BOY (which we knew all along), to feeling your first kicks, hiccups and rolls, to even the uncomfortable parts. All of it was worth every second and I would do it again in a heartbeat for the chance to bring you into this world.

Every day I wake up hoping today may be the day I get to finally meet you face to face. While at the same time, I'm trying to soak up every last minute of the pregnancy. Every kick, roll, hiccup means just a little more now because I know they are numbered. They are feelings I imagine I will miss every day. I have loved and cherished being able to have you with me, every minute of every day and knowing that you are safe.

Everything and everyone is ready for you! Your room is waiting for you, the bassinet is sitting right next to my side of the bed, all your clothes are washed and put away and you already have more toys than you'll know what to do with. You big brother Oscar doesn't know it yet, but he's very excited to meet you! I think he will be very protective of you! Your grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins and all our friends are counting down the days to meet you. You are one lucky and very loved little boy.

The hospital bags are packed with everything any book could ever say we could need or want to have with us. We have gone to every class we could find to be sure we were doing everything just right for you. We've gone to what feels like a million doctor's appointments, taken all the right vitamins, tried to eat well and get some excercise. But none of that matters as much as getting to be your Mommy. You don't know it yet, but your Mommy is sort of a 'planner'. I like to do things in advance and have everything as close to perfect as possible. So I have done everything I could think of to get prepared for your arrival. However, something tells me nothing can truly prepare me for what's about to happen! The good, the bad, and the ugly...I have no real clue what to expect and for once, I couldn't be more excited about it. Whatever it takes to make sure you are safe, healthy and happy, is all I care about.

Mother's Day is this Sunday and while I don't know if you'll be here for it, I still feel like a Mommy already! Taking care of myself to better take care of you for the last 9 months has been the biggest job I've ever had in my life. I didn't do everything perfectly or always the right way, but everything was for you. From here on out, you come before anything and everything in my life. Your health, happiness and safety come before my own and it's something I totally give up for you, without a seconds hesitation.

I can't promise to be the perfect parent, but I can promise with all my heart that I will love you unconditionally for the rest of my life and beyond. You already are the biggest blessing I have ever had in my life and can't wait to see the person you become and share your life with you.

I love you baby boy!

Monday, April 25, 2011

Longest PMS Ever??

37 weeks

I think I can only describe these last couple of weeks as having the longest PMS ever. Not necessarily the hunger but the mood swings! I don't think I've ever been so irritable in my entire life. I'm sure it's exhaustion, combined with the restlessness and desire to meet this little man, but it's bad. It's hard to just be normal and nice to my friends and family that I LOVE, let alone people who aren't exactly my favorite! I'm just hoping I can make it through these last few weeks without blowing up on anyone!!

Baby's movements have definitely slowed down as he's running out of room. He mostly just rolls from side to side now, but he'll give me the occasional kick or two for good measure. I still feel really good in terms of just day to day. I get really exhausted in the afternoons, but I feel ok which is a blessing. The belly is getting so heavy and almost hard to carry around all the time! I don't feel totally miserable, but I can see how women can very easily be 'over' pregnancy at this point.

My bag is mostly packed and ready to go and Baby's bag is completely ready. We have all the cameras charged and packed too! I've had a few 'pre' labor symptoms - diarrhea, extreme fatigue, contractions, lower back pain, but I still feel like it'll be at least another week or two. After Kristin's baby shower this Saturday, I'm going to start all the 'at home' tricks I can to get him out!! LOL!

We have our newborn class tonight and the car seats get installed/inspected on Thursday. I think that will make things even more real when we have those car seat bases in the car ready to go! I need to clean the house one last time before he comes but that 'nesting' instinct just can't overcome the exhaustion I feel every day. We brought the bassinet up from the basement last night and put it in place. It's crazy seeing it there! But, I want Oscar to get used to having it there so it's not a total shock when there's a baby sleeping in it!

At this point, just waiting to meet this little man! The thought that it could happen any day is exciting and definitely helps make each day easier, but I'm sure that'll only last for about a week and when it STILL hasn't happened it won't be as helpful! LOL! I go to see the doctor again tomorrow and we'll see where we are at that point and try and get an idea of when we can get this little man out!!

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

7 lb wonder

36 weeks

Well, we already knew that Baby B was going to be big....but I don't think we were quite prepared for our doctor's appointment on Monday. At the sonogram, they estimated his weight right now at about 7 pounds!!! He wasn't quite as much of a model this time, but we got a GREAT picture of him flexing his muscles and a great profile shot! He had his ankles crossed over each other, stretching out his legs and yawning like he was super cozy!
Here is the muscle shot, ladies, watch out!

I saw the doctor the next day and she's estimating him at 9 pounds if we go full term. I'm not dilated or anything yet. However, with my height, his size and some other 'anatomical' issues (aka: narrow girl parts), we have started discussing some other options. She went over when and why to induce and also talked a lot about a c-section. I've always considered myself pretty open to the idea of having a c-section if the need arose. However, I didn't realize how while I was thinking that, I was also thinking that it wouldn't even be necessary. After talking to the doctor, we may be leaning more towards that given all of the factors stacked against us. At this point, the chance of complications maybe be greater with a natural delivery.

The doctor said I just need to go into labor asap! LOL! She said this will help not only know that his lungs are mature and he's ready to come out, but also gives us a chance of him being small enough to possibly pass vaginally. I was having some slight contractions Monday night, but they were irregular and I haven't had any since yesterday afternoon.

We had a wonderful couple's baby shower this weekend and got some great books and diapers for the little man. We finally got some of the 'jean' diapers Nick wanted so badly! We also finished off the things we thought we would need from our registry. We got a cart full of stuff, but other than the Pack 'N Play, I can barely remember what else we got! LOL! We also re-arranged the nursery a little and put up new blinds. We got our video camera also and can't wait to catch all of Baby B's milestones and be able to share them with everyone!!

At this point, it's just a waiting game. We are hoping he'll decide to make his appearance very soon!

Friday, April 15, 2011

Maternity 'Must Haves'

Before this pregnancy is all said and done, I thought I'd make a list of things that I couldn't live without during this experience. They may or may not be for everyone, but they definitely things that made my life easier, more comfortable or just more convenient. They are in no particular order, so here goes:

- Be Maternity rouched tank tops from Target - They are $24.99 a piece which is kinda pricey, but I wear them every single day under my shirts. They are the greatest things EVER!! I have a white one and a black one. They are comfortable and smooth everything out nicely. I would recommend getting at least one in white and one in either black or grey.

- Full panel maternity jeans - Old Navy had the best ones for me, but probably anywhere with full panel would work. It makes a world of difference as the belly gets bigger.

- A body/maternity pillow - I got the Boppy body pillow pretty early on because I was having serious hip pains at night. It was a life saver!! I've almost worn it out now so it doesn't have quite the same effect it used to, but it's still good for propping up in bed or on the couch.

- An 'App' (if possible) for your phone to track your pregnancy - I had 3 different ones on my phone AND a couple saved as favorites on my computer. Some gave weekly and some daily updates on what to expect for that part of the pregnancy, approximately what size baby should be, and other tips for dealing with different parts of pregnancy. It has become one of the first things I do in the morning is check and see what little tips they have for that day! I got a lot of good information from them. I recommend the 'What to Expect When You're Expecting' App if available.

- A Tide stain remover pen- I have gotten so clumsy, especially here at the end, and I spill something on myself almost daily! These come in handy to prevent the stain from getting too 'cozy' on my clothes!

- A small travel pill box/container - I take 3 vitamins per day (pre natal, calcium with Vitamin D and DHA supplement) and rather than lug around bottles to keep at work, at home and everywhere in between, I got this perfect little pill holder from GNC that I can keep in my purse. It's helped me stay on track with taking all my pills whether I'm home, at work, out of town or just running errands!

- A pen/paper for your purse - As the pregnancy has progressed, my already lousy memory has gotten somehow much worse. If I don't write something down, it might as well be good as gone. So this has been helpful to have if I need to start making a grocery list, errand list, whatever.

- Fun jewelry - I know this is a weird one, BUT, as I've gotten bigger and clothes aren't looking quite as good on me, I've found that having jewelry to dress up an outfit has helped me feel so much better! A lot of maternity clothes are pretty 'plain' so having something to dress it up for work has given me more options (ie - a plain white tshirt that I bought to wear for errands became totally work appropriate with the right necklace/bracelets, etc).

- A 'back up', easy, quick hairstyle - Again, another weird one. However, as I've gotten more uncomfortable and more tired near the end, having a quick hairstyle that I can do and still look somewhat put together has helped me catch those extra 20 minutes of sleep that I may not live without. Not only that, I've gotten to a point where I'm hot all the time and the thought of getting out the blowdryer and Chi to get my hair 'perfect' sounds less than appealing some days.

- A Babies R Us Member card BEFORE you register, along with signing up for Destination Maternity or any other maternity/baby stores' email lists. - I've gotten so many coupons and rewards through these that I've been able to save quite a bit of money buying necessities simply for getting an email. With the BRU rewards, we earned $20 in 'R Us' bucks to use at the store just simply having our rewards card on our registry so that every dollar spent from the registry turned into rewards points for us! Between coupons, these and a few gift cards, we should be able to complete the final things we need off our registry without having to pay anything out of pocket!

- Kleenex, kleenex and more kleenex - Seriously, I kept them at my desk, and anywhere and everywhere I could in our house. As gross as this is, I feel like I have more junk in my nose and have even had the occasional nose bleed so having those handy was a must.

- A Blog! - Obviously since I'm writing this IN my blog, I took advantage. But it was great to have a place to write down what was happening, how I was feeling and what was going on in our lives during each week of the pregnancy. It was a great release for me, but it will also be something we can look back on later and remember and re-live things. It's also been a good thing to share with friends who are pregnant so they can see what to expect or relate to certain things I was going through.

- Tums, Tums and more TUMS! - I kept these in my purse and a big bottle at home. You never quite know what will affect your stomach in a bad way when you're pregnant so having these available at all times was a life saver!

- Tylenol PM - This was on the 'safe' list of medications you can take while pregnant. I didn't need it all the time, but every so often if I'd had a few rough nights of sleep, taking 2 of these would help me get some good rest and sort of catch back up and start feeling like myself again. They didn't make me drowsy or feel out of it the next day either, mostly just took away any aches or pains and helped me get deeper sleep I was lacking.

-  A Vice - Mine is Diet Dr. Pepper. I don't drink it every day, maybe a couple times a week, but it is the ONE thing that has sounded good through the entire pregnancy and it's my little 'gift' to myself. You spend so much time watching what you eat, what you drink, what you breathe, what you do, etc that it's good to give yourself a little something special. This was also perfect for me because it was my 'drink of choice' at girls nights when other people could enjoy beer, wine or something else.

- A large (refillable) water bottle or cup (with a straw) - They want you to drink SO MUCH water and fluids when you're pregnant. I have a large movie theater cup that I keep at my desk that I try and drink a full glass of every day. Then I make sure to drink more water (or juice/milk) at home to get in all my fluids. On the weekends, I get the large Smart Water bottles and try to drink 2 per day and usually that gets me to my max. It gives me an end goal to be sure I'm getting what I need without just guessing.

- Last but not least, I know this is cheesy, but a supportive husband! - I honestly don't know how I would have ever gotten through this process without Nick. From foot rubs, to cleaning the house for a baby shower I was throwing to going on walks with me to bringing my nursery vision to life, he's been so wonderful. That's not to say we haven't had our disagreements here and there, but there is by far no one else I would have wanted to go through this with. Having him there has made this process much easier, more fun and more exciting!

I'm sure there were other things, but these are the ones that stick out mostly to me. As you can tell a lot of these are inexpensive or even free. I'm not a fan of spending all this money for such a short amount of time. I'm all about practicality and comfort. Some of these have been life savers, some have just been nice to have. During this wonderful, scary, exciting, emotional time, every bit of comfort is very welcomed!

Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Calm before the storm???

35 weeks

This week started off a little rough. I over-did it this weekend - planting flowers and throwing a baby shower on Saturday. Then Princess Diana exhibit (lots of walking) and a walk Sunday night. I went to bed Sunday night with terrible cramping right under my stomach and in my lower back. It was so bad I could barely move in bed and standing up was near impossible. I came to work Monday in lots of pain. I was fine sitting down, but standing up was very difficult and walking was kept to a minimum. Luckily, I had a doctor's appointment already scheduled for that day. What I was feeling was 'round ligament pain' and my doctor said it is very common for this stage, especially with everything I had done over the weekend. NOTE TO SELF - she said with any following pregnancies, this may start earlier than this point!

Everything else with the baby checked out fine. Somehow I managed to gain 5 more pounds since our last appointment - didn't know there was any room left!! My belly is getting BEYOND massive at this point. I was so uncomfortable this entire weekend that I was just ready to get this baby out! Then, a miracle happened...I've gotten 2 FULL nights of sleep with little to no pain and feel great!! I was getting to a point where I didn't think I could make it much longer, but this much needed break has made me think I can get at least through the end of this month :)

Baby B is still moving around a lot! I'll get a little foot or leg. I can tell he's starting to get cramped because there will be times I can feel him from right under my ribs all the way down in my pelvis! I just hope he's in the right position and that the doctor won't have to flip him around before birth!

We watched 'the birth video' last week in birthing class. I was having a very 'scared' day that day and everything about the birth was freaking me out. I was so scared to watch the video and kept my hands over my eyes in case I need to block the view. I missed the 'crowning' part (thank God), but then the baby came out. And she was beautiful and crying and mom and dad were so happy and it just sort of melted away all my fears. As cliche and cheesy as it sounds, seeing that baby just reminded me that there IS a light at the end of this tunnel. I've gotten so used to being pregnant and just 'talking' about the baby. It reminds me of planning a wedding - it's all you talk about, think about, dream about, but it's just an 'idea'. Something that's so far away - no matter how close it may be. And then BAM, the day comes and it goes by so fast and this event that consumed your whole life suddenly becomes a thing of the past. While the baby will never be a 'thing of the past', the day I give birth will be and I just hope to enjoy as much of it as possible because I know it will go so fast.

We had our Baptism class last night and ran into a girl from our high school, Mary, her husband and their ADORABLE little boy Connor. The class was sort of pointless - we just watched a video talking about the significance of Baptism, but it was good to see Mary and meet little Connor. I also went to get pre-registered at the hospital yesterday afternoon. Luckily they have you come in and fill that out beforehand because there was so much paperwork! It took about a good hour to get it all completed! I had to write the baby's name down on a bunch of different forms and it was so strange seeing it in writing. We have been so careful not to say it even at home to avoid any 'slipping' to family members before he's here. Seeing it made it very real. I recently came up with a 'back up' name in case he doesn't look like the name we already have picked out for him and so yesterday I was going back and forth between the 2 names. Nick doesn't like the back up name or even the idea of having one, so I doubt I'll get very far if I think we need it!

At Tracy's baby shower over the weekend, her mother in law gave me some hope! She said she carried her oldest son Steve (who I've known since 4th grade) much like I'm carrying now. She thinks Baby B has dropped with how low he is, but I've been carrying him low for most of the pregnancy. She had a lot of fluid as well and according to her, she lots 25 pounds of fluid at his birth. I'm not holding my breath that I'll lose QUITE that much, but I'd be so happy if that were the case! She said she gives me 3 more weeks and she thinks the baby will come! I hope so! We just want to get through the end of April and then I'm ready to meet my little man! I just want to hold him and kiss him and hug him and stare at him! Poor guy...he doesn't know what's about to hit him!

We have another sonogram next week to get another weight/size measurement and I'm hoping he's not too huge! I've been extra hungry the past week or so I don't know if he's going through a growth spurt or what. I just hope the doctor gives us SOMETHING in terms of when she thinks he'll come. The thought of going all the way to May 20th just seems so impossible. It's probably my own fault, but Nick and I both have been pretty sure that he's going to come early. All of my friends had their babies early and now I'm afraid I'll be the one who goes all the way up to, if not PAST the due date. I'm giving it until the first week or so of May and then I'm doing whatever I can to help speed the process along!